When old hurts whisper... whisper back

I am grateful to have a peaceful, uncomplicated life.

I'm not “lucky” in this regard for none of this came without effort (if you've read my book Moondance, you'll have a sense).

Over the years, I've faced my demons. I've consciously forgiven and let go. I've jumped over cliffs. I've chosen freedom even when it meant uncertainty.

I still have desires, preferences, ways I want to grow and some challenges – of course: that's life. Yet very little “gets” to me any more.

Even so, an old hurt bubbled up recently for one last gasp, as if seeping through a crack in my soul. Have you had this happen?

For me, this familiar and paralyzing state boils down to this:

1. Others taking power over me (and me allowing it), and at times
2. Me taking an action that gives my power away (that I later regret).

When I felt powerless yesterday, I hadn't felt it this intensely for a decade. Instead of judging myself for being “weak” or “stupid”, I didn't judge myself and allowed it to move through.

And... I gave my soul clear instructions:

• I asked that any cords be cut and that others' emotions stuck to me go back to their owners – now.
• I asked that my own emotions stuck to others return to me – now.
• I used Ho'oponopono to forgive myself – I'm sorry. I love you. Please forgive me. I forgive myself. [repeat]

Within an hour, I felt normal again. Before I went to sleep that night, I asked that this hole my energy body be healed permanently while I slept.

The next day, I found out that the “situation” that had triggered the heart memory was innocent –. As reminders go, this one was gentle.

And I continue to ponder: How do we change our emotional makeup? How do we transform age-old patterns – for good?

Perhaps your experience has been different, but it's almost like my deepest stuff visits now and then, as if to say: How are you doing with that now, Karen?

For me, healing the kinks in my unconscious hasn't been instant like extinguishing a flame. It's been more like slowing a pendulum swing. It's true that I've changed over the years. That I feel better than ever.

Yet there are some bits that go deeper than others.

Have you had an old, forgotten hurt pay a visit? If so, breathe, forgive and let go in the way that works for you... and imagine.

Imagine... that your body repels that particular energy hook.
Imagine... that your past walks beside you, bestowing its wisdom.
Imagine... you strong, protected, expanded, free!

Finally, remember. You are swimming in a vibrating energy sea that supports accelerated change. This is one of the reasons you came here...

So if you find yourself facing a familiar wave you thought had dried up... respond with compassion.

And then: learn how to surf.

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