Do you have karma around being visible?

“There are only two types of speakers in the world. 1. The nervous and 2. Liars.”

– Mark Twain

Do you have karma around being visible?

It's easy to criticize someone else in the public eye. Especially from an inactive armchair, or an anonymous comment.

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Whether or not you agree with someone is one thing, but imagine for a moment. How would you feel if your heart was out in public, for all to see?

Whether you're seeking your soulmate, or seeking clients as a freelancer or entrepreneur, Heart Transparency is the magnet that will attract your ideal match. Without a word, your heart will let them know that they've found the right person to work with (or fall in love with).

When I was younger, I fell into this trap of Judging others in the public eye. Today, I think differently because I know how making my heart public (even on a small scale) feels. It's not an easy thing to do.

Do you have karma around being visible?

“The power of visibility can never be underestimated.”

– Margaret Cho

I'm sure I have karma around being visible. I know because sometimes, there's also this little voice inside me that's inexplicable. It says: Don't speak too loud, and don't shine too bright (or you KNOW what will happen then). We're buddies now, but this voice would often run the show when I was younger.

On my past lifetimes, I don't have dates and details, but here's how I know that I've had lives of fervent belief, where was shut down, persecuted or worse. I know this simply because I haven't had anything major in this life happen to me when I spoke up, that could have created the magnitude of fear I have inside (though I have had clues in family relationships).

How does your body feel about expansion?

“I'm shy, paranoid, whatever word you want to use. I hate fame. I've done everything I can to avoid it..”

– Johnny Depp

A trusted intuitive once told me that repeatedly whenever I've been on an expansive path in previous lifetimes, someone has betrayed me, stopping me in my tracks, or the rug has otherwise been pulled out from under me.

So what happened over lifetimes? I trusted slowly (yet quite a few betrayed me when they found their way in) and of course, I've avoided expansion. What's my purpose in this lifetime? My Heart Stretch? To Trust. Funny how that works...

Sabotaging expansion was also a pattern that I repeated in my life over and over. Whether it's a job I (finally) love ending because a company's going bankrupt (this happened twice), or someone spending a great deal of energy getting me to open up, and then when I do begins to backpedal. Good times (and thankfully in the past).

If you're wondering if you have karma around expansion or being visible, look at your painful, repeated patterns, and the situations that trigger out-of-proportion fear. Forgiving and letting these go in layers, is what changes karma (a.k.a. energy) first, and then it's what changes our lives. Awakening full potential.

The hair-raising prospect of speaking your truth (try it)

“I am not a teacher, but an awakener.”

– Robert Frost

In this life, my own heart has lead me into perilous waters. I feel completely connected when I write, and at times, also very much alone in the crowd.

I started Moondance in 1996 after a heartbreak. The situation felt so out of proportion and intense for me, that I began exploring the idea of past lifetimes. I shared what I was doing with one of my oldest friends who said: “You don't really believe that do you?” (this woman has been one of my best teachers of self-trust)

At the time, I was so affected by her statement, that I abandoned my heart explorations for five years while Moondance sat on a computer chip.

Your Gift for stepping into the tension

“You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

– Eleanor Roosevelt

Of course, the gift I received in time, was an unshakable capacity to own my own beliefs, and the opportunity to explore my heart further. At every step, I've had to find the strength inside me first (despite virtally everyone else around me facing a different direction). At every step, another opportunity: Trust Myself.

So these Heart Explorations I write about, are continually challenging me to grow. I share this, in case you've been up against your own heart, when exploring new territory lately. Know it: you are not alone. And! Know that the journey is worth it.

Expansion and growth happens in spurts and layers. Early on, I felt the fear and did it anyway. In time, I dissolved a layer, and behold! Another dear resistance would reveal itself. A great quote I heard once: “New Level, New Devil”

Are you stepping in to bigger waters?

“Three things cannot be long hidden: the sun, the moon, and the truth.”

– Buddha

I often wonder what happened to the souls in our history who've been silenced, shut down, shunned from their own family or communities for their beliefs and ideas. Who have reached the pinnacles of success, only to topple.

How quickly will they speak their truth in the next life? How willing will they be to be visible again? To assume responsibility for others? To live an expansive life? If we withdraw, constrict, resist, the wound will fester and call out for attention. Those of us who answer the call have the potential to be powerfully transformed.

Now over to you. You have a dream. It may be growing a business, leaving corporate, or finding the love of your life. You've made great strides, may have even reached a pinnacle, while another one glimmers in the distance.

Where does your heart seek to hide, hold back? Do you have karma around being visible? Hint: look to where you justify delaying key decisions. Beyond this barrier, lies your breakthrough.

Meaning of life poetry for your heart. Created with love.

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